I last visited Burton Bradstock two years
ago with Emily and our friends Joe and Keeley. Joe is a journalist and keeps a
wild swimming blog, where he follows in the footsteps of his hero Roger Deakin
and ‘re-swims’ the entire of Waterlog. Our first trip to Burton Bradstock
featured in one of Joe’s early entries and captured my favourite day of the
year.
The day before in a bookshop in Bridport, the owner told me that she had been swimming the day before and it had been warm. She is not wrong. I wade into the sea with confidence and the sand soon shelves down so I am up to my waste. A wave crashes over me and I am submerged and swimming.
When we visited before, I remember being
overwhelmed by the beauty of the stretching headland and the curve of the
coast. Joe and I swam in small circles so as not to go out of our depths and we
talked of being ‘in’ nature. Today my thoughts are morbid. I feel the pull of
the sea and the ferocity of the waves and the feeling of being ‘in’ nature is
humbling rather than empowering. If the sea chose to take me I would have no
choice but to let it.
As a gigantic wave comes over me, I am
pushed forwards and into the grasp of the sea in a manner reminiscent of the
famous dolly zoom in Jaws when Officer Brody first sees the shark. I imagine
drowning. I imagine Joe hearing the news of my lifeless body being washed up on
the Dorset coast and swearing off swimming for good, leaving his blog
unfinished. He writes a book, but not on his search for transcendence through
swimming and instead on his search for closure in his grievance as he works
towards returning to the water. In the final chapter, Joe too goes back to
Burton Bradstock with friends and family and they all join hands in the water…
… to be honest, I didn’t get that far in thinking about it. I see Emily on the
beach waving at me and I swim back to shore. I leave the sea behind, exhilarated and
glowing. As I towel off, Emily, tells me that I was very far out and that she
was beginning to worry. I tell her about my morbid thoughts and about Joe
swearing off swimming. Emily gives me a funny look.
Before leaving, I take a few pictures of the rowing boats that have been left on the beach: I am taken by their shape, the colour of their cracked paint and the texture of their ropes.
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